New Job

I know lately alot of my blogs have been complaining about how my life sucks and how tired and stressed I am. But suddenly, my life has seemed to make its way upward, just a tad. I have recently been hired at a new job that I had been hoping to get. Now that I can quit my hellish job I have now, things seem to be clearing up! I've gotten a job at Marco's Pizza, which sells pizza and subs. Well, considering I've worked at a papa johns and a subway (pizza and subs), I thought that I would be a perfect hire! But I hadn't heard from the owners in like two days, the time limit they said they would call me in, and I began to worry. I didn't want to stay at the job I have currently, but lack of money prohibited any efforts to quit. Now, I am hopefully going to have a great job, that I love doing. I don't know why, but I just love making pizzas. I loved working at papa johns, but I also loved it because I loved the people. Hopefully, the people I work with at Marco's are going to be just as great! :D

Best Advice Ever

The best advice I have ever gotten was from my mom. She has always been the one to give me good advice and to support me whenever I've needed it. She told me one time, "Suck it up! Life's not fair!" and boy was she right. Life isn't fair and if you constantly expect things to go your way every time, you are going to constantly be let down. I still here this piece of advice today. I get stressed and start complaining about how tired I am and how everything seems to be going downhill, and I hear my mom in the background somewhere say, "suck it up ashleigh". It may sound harsh for a mother to say this but she is only teaching me that if i wear my feelings on my sleeves that I am only going to get hurt worse when I get out into the actual real world. I definately know that I will be telling this to my kids one day, but I might be a little more sympathetic, but then again I might not. lol. I do however tell myself to "suck it up" every now and then, just to remind myself that I need to be more resilient to an ever changing world. People aren't always going to play fair or be fair, and I know life isn't going to just hand me a great life. I just have to "suck it up" and stick it out!

Me

While I'm naturally suspicious,
I'm not all vicious.
Just can't trust so easy,
After the guys I've dated turned out sleazy.
I guess its my fault for being so nice,
I guess I just get the bad luck roll of the dice.
But its up to me to change it,
instead of staying in this black pit.
Its my time to shine,
and tell myself that everything will turn out fine.
I just have to believe,
and I can achieve.
I am who I am and if that's not good enough,
I really don't care, you should move along with your stuff.
I am honest to the bone,
never have you known,
anyone like me,
I hope you'll finally see,
that I am quite unique,
and it is one man I seek,
to turn my heart to gold,
and to him I will be sold.
He will be honest and true,
and love me through and through.
And only then can I be free,
from this pain and misery.

Oh Elementary School, How I Do Miss Thee...

There are some things I remember from elementary school that still make me look back and smile. I went to JP Ryon elementary in Waldorf, MD and I loved it. The teachers were all great and I loved going to school, which makes me the nerd I am today. I remember one teacher, Mrs. Proctor, who was my kindergarden teacher. She was so much fun but for some reason I had the scariest dream about her. I dreamed that she was the big bad wolf from the three little pigs story and that she was trying to kill me. In real life, she was just as nice as could be. But I also remember my favorite teacher from elementary school, Mrs. Talley. She was my third grade teacher and she was such an amazing teacher, that I didn't really want to leave her class. But she had this method of teacher us our times tables. She would give a quiz every week on each set of the times table (one week would be the 1's table, then the 2's table and so on) and if we got them all right, we would get a star on the times table chart, saying we had accomplished it. If we had accomplished all the times tables up to 12, she would buy us a candy bar. That was just the coolest thing for a teacher to do at my age then. She was actually going to buy us candy for doing something we were supposed to learn anyways!!! She was the coolest, though I' m sure some people didn't like her because she did have her mean moments. I also remember the play ground. It was wooden for the first few years of elementary school, and by the fourth grade (our school only went up to the 5th grade for elementary) we had gotten a whole new playground! It was metal and colorful and so much fun. We had this awesome fire truck playset, a giant plastic tire swing, and swings galore. Needless to say, I had an awesome elementary experiance.

Dear Lord, Why Me?

Ok so i had a good day today til my phone decided to jump into the fish pond at Auburn University. Me and my cousin Mitchell went to the fish pond to feed the fish some bread. Well we got there and started to throw the bread into the pond. We watched the fish "go at it" when we threw the tiny balls 0f bread into the pond. Well, when we were about to leave, he picked up the bread bag and we heard a huge "PLOP" in the water and we looked at each other like "what was that?!" Then I start to wonder where my phone is...and then it dawns on me that it could have been my phone. So we rush back to the tailgating area and check for my phone, which wasn't there. So we went back to the pond. Let me describe the pond for you, so that you can get a mental image of why i was so hesitant to go searching for my phone in it. The pond has no filteration except evaporation. The water has a turbidity of about a few inches and then the rest of the way down you can only see green. There is alge all over the stone stuff in the pond and there are coy fish in it. Ok, so i decided instead of putting my hand in that i would put my foot in and feel around for it. I finally found and pulled it out and it still kinda worked. I opened it up and the screen was all messed up and the buttons didnt work on it...so it was dead for now.

Great! First my computer crashes and now my phone has died for good. What next, my car?

Go to bed or stay up longer? That is the Question.

Ok, so I'm sitting here on the couch amidst the dark and I can't decide whether to go to bed or not. It shouldn't be that hard to decide, if you really get down to the basics of it. If I'm tired, I should go to bed. But something always compels me to stay on facebook, like it has brainwashed me to keep checking to see if anything exciting is going to happen. Maybe someone is going to comment on a picture of mine or send me a message or write something on my wall. Or maybe someone will pop up a chat with me and keep me entertained for a while. This may not be everyones idea of excitement, but when you really have no social due to work and school and facebook is the only way to stay connected, anything menial becomes exciting. However, my id is screaming for me to go to bed, but my super ego is telling me to stay up and keep checking facebook every 6 seconds. Now if you were completely lost with what I just said, its a psychology thing. Hard to explain and I don't really feel like explaining it now, considering its 2:10 AM. Does anyone one else experiance this feeling too? I'm pretty sure they do but either (1) don't want to admit it or (2) don't read my blogs. lol I fear its number 2, but oh well! The world is not going to end. However I think I might think about going to bed for another five minutes and then make my way to my room. Goodnight to all you lovely people, and don't let facebook brainwash you like it has me. :D

25 Things I Will Never Do

1) Smoke cigarrettes
2) Start Drama
3) Take candy from a stranger ;)
4) Drive over 85 mph (well, at least I don't now)
5) Jump off a cliff without a bungee cord
6) Harm myself intentionally
7) Eat pizza with anchoives
8) Leave the number of gallons/dollars of gas I pump into my car on an odd number (idk i'm OCD like that)
9) Rap...because I can't
10) Marry someone I don't love
11) Climb a Mount Everest
12) This list ever again
13) Drugs (why it took me so long to think of this, idk)
14) Try to drop my future kids off a balcony...like michael jackson tried to
15) Leave my future kids with someone I don't trust
16) Spit on anyone
17) Go on a reality show
18) Look frumpy
19) Tell my boss outright that I hate her
20) Fight in a war
21) Skydive
22) Fly a plane
23) Swim the english channel
24) Visit eastern europe
25) Eat anything raw